alvinz is back .

Ok fine. I think my blog gotta attract all my supporters back. Cos i am back to the sad mood.

Today whole day since i open my eyes, i am in a very down mood. Jess dear is angry with me & i am feeling so empty today. Very empty.

No mood to work
No mood to eat
No mood ....

My sales is horrible today, didnt do much. sighzzZ ...

Perhaps i am really a failure. I failed in my 2 yrs reln , failed in my 7 yrs reln & now going fail in my 2 mths reln. LOL. GET USED TO IT alvin.

Another problem is my back. I realised its the spine or backbone. Its the bone that is having a cracking pain whenever i bend. I think i overshag my body by standing. The pain doesnt seem to go off for very long. Think its permanent. WHo cares !!!

First day in 2 months i didnt meet dear after her work. Shes angry , she dun wan answer my call . I really dunno what to do. I feel down , dont feel like talking , dont feel like doing anything.

I start to think a lot things. Think and think and think ...

Jacky (GWC Colleague) asked why i look so down now. He once said, January i look like shit , Feb on i look cheerful. He hope to see me cheerful. But i am so down now .... sigh